Tom Petty sang, "The waiting is the hardest part." Dr. Seuss wrote about "the waiting place" in his book Oh, The Places You'll Go. Waiting is a strange stage between your reality and your future. I find myself waiting.
We are getting a puppy in 9 days. We officially started our countdown a few days ago and today we go to single digits. 9 more days until we have a dog, a pet.....a new baby in the house again, but this time with fur. Waiting for our new dog (Teddy Graham Sokolowski) reminds me of when I was pregnant, waiting to have my children. There was so much to buy and prepare for. There were books to read. And there was all the imagining....what would it be like? How would it work? What would go wrong? What would go right? How would life change? Would I be a good mom?
We've bought many things for Teddy. We still have to put up our puppy gates. I'm worried about house training. I'm worried about separation anxiety. I'm worried about another little creating having a hold on my heart and someone else to worry about. What if he gets hurt or sick? Can my heart handle losing him? He's not even here yet.
In other areas of my life, I also feel I'm waiting. I'm waiting for a vaccine to COVID-19.
Every day, I'm waiting for news of what my school will do. Will we stay open as we have been? Will my class need to quarantine? Will we go remote? For how long? I feel myself waiting for answers, at the mercy of others decisions.
These are the last days of my life without a dog. And so I wait.
Kathleen Neagle Sokolowski