It's probably a really bad sign that I didn't remember my One Little Word until I opened up this blog tonight. Apparently, January was the last time I blogged so my resolution to work on my writing habit hasn't quite worked out. But I'm here now. When I saw my forgotten OLW, I remembered that STEPS was actually a very good choice for this year. I've felt the need to take steps forward in my health, my happiness, and my career. Sometimes, it all feels so overwhelming, but one little step forward is all that is ever needed to get some momentum. Maybe, too, with my writing life. Maybe tonight's post is a positive step forward towards sharing my thoughts again in a public way. I've had some reluctance to do so. It feels like an unkind world in many ways- not a safe place to share your "first draft" thinking, which is often what I write on my blog (well, when I was writing regularly.) Another concern I have is that I change my mind- on my blog, I share that I am not giving homework anymore, but then circumstances change and homework seems like the right move again. I write that I am no longer going to diet, but then I realize that my health is suffering and I need habit change and lifestyle improvements to be my best self. It seems as soon as I write something, my thoughts shift and what I wrote isn't the entire story. And so it feels scary to say something here and publish....only to realize that actually, I don't fully mean that anymore. But I think back to why my writing meant something to me before- and it was not to impress anyone, really. It was to document my life- my teaching life, my life as a mom, my life as a person. And so I'm okay with my ideas evolving. I am going to be okay with writing an idea today that I might not buy into a month from now. Evolving thoughts show I am thinking, learning, growing and challenging myself. So, I'm going to try to share a picture a day with a related story and call it- "This May Moment." Of course, this will just be for the month of May. Here is my first one.... Wantagh Park Dog Park (small dog area)- Megan and my mom took Teddy to the dog park because 1) it was absolutely gorgeous out today and 2) Teddy needs to learn to socialize better with other dogs. Did it go well? It did not. The park was full of small, adorable dogs and some who probably could have gone in the larger dog section... Teddy cowered in the corner at first. Then he cowered under the picnic table and under the chairs. Dogs came to smell him and chase but he did not engage. When I clipped his leash on, he seemed thrilled to be able to be leaving. He pulled hard and wagged his tail happily as we made our way out of the park. Teddy was much relieved to go back to Naya's house and be the only dog in the house.
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So nice to see you and to read your voice, Kathleen!
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