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Courage Doesn't Always Roar:
​The Quest to Be Better Each Day 

#SOL20 BY Now

8/25/2020

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By now, I would have their names written on desk tags and locker tags. 
By now, I would be assigning each student a number and labeling mailboxes and cubbies.
By now, I would be planning out my first week with students, filled with movement, collaboration and team building projects.
By now, I would be thinking of what work to hang up for Open School Night. 
By now, I would have written my welcome back letter to students. The letters would be in envelopes, addressed with happy stickers, ready to be sent. 
By now, I would be feeling my teacher brain click back into what I know about launching a school year. 

But it's back to school 2020 and I don't have a final class list. I don't know if I am teaching the students who are remote alongside the students who are face to face.
If that is happening, I don't know how it works. I can't envision making it work. 
I need my digital tools right away but students won't have their chrome books for weeks. 

I am worried about it all.
I am worried about being able to hear children through their masks when I have a hearing problem, wear hearing aides, and struggle to hear kids accurately without their mouth being covered and muffled. 
I am worried about how to make a classroom feel cozy and welcoming when students are separated and behind plastic shields.
I am worried about my 2nd floor classroom without air conditioning and hot September temperatures, now with masks thrown in. 
I am worried about how my own children will deal with all these changes to school. 

I think knowing more will help. Having the plan set, either way, will allow me to begin to prepare better. Everything so uncertain and up in the air is making me feel so utterly unprepared. Being unprepared is something I fear- it's what haunts my back to school anxiety dreams. Always some version or variation of being unprepared causes me the most anxiety.

Today I am going to do the things I can do. Organize my home life a bit more. Grocery shop. Prepare my welcome back letter for whenever I get a final class list. Breathe in air without a mask in my air conditioned house.

​How are you handling all the unknowns? 

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Erika Victor
8/25/2020 06:10:38 am

It sure is a time of looking at small chunks of time. We did two days of online, then three more, then another two. Now we are hybrid for at least ten days. I hope you can enjoy some last days with your family as you juggle all the very real worries.

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ADRIENNE GILLESPIE
8/25/2020 07:02:06 am

You captured exactly how I am feeling. We go back for inservice week on Monday and, other than knowing we are working remotely, have no idea about how this year will look. I check my email multiple times a day and am disappointed, frustrated, and worried every time.

I hope we all get some clarification and peace soon.

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Patricia Emerson link
8/25/2020 07:53:27 am

I only hope that you get some "answers" and that they give you some comfort. You need to manage what you can, and let the rest come. Your heart is open; you want the best for everyone. That will be enough. (I read a post from Jennifer Gonzalez about "letting go," and it really resonated for me.) <a href="https://www.cultofpedagogy.com/overachiever/">If you have a moment...</a>

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Stacey link
8/25/2020 11:31:35 am

Speaking of not having a final class list, Iz had her classroom teacher changed yesterday -- and school started today!

This year if just going to be so challenging.

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JenniferM link
8/25/2020 02:59:17 pm

Oh, what a heartbreakingly accurate picture of this year. The contrast is so powerful, and it's what I wish those making the decisions would keep in mind. I loved how you ended with what you CAN do now, despite all the worry and unknowns. Good luck!

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Hezgee
8/25/2020 03:43:36 pm

I love the structure and meaning of the "by now" repetition - so effective in bringing us into our own feelings about what is about to occur. While it's true that some plan is welcome, I find that plan keeps changing, so we really do have to just be so open to change right now. Wishing you the best. :)

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Lainie link
8/25/2020 07:22:57 pm

Your post resonated with me on so many levels. There is so much right now I don't know, so much I don't have done. There is so much I' worry about - so many PEOPLE I worry about.

As for me? How have I been able to cope (in whatever form that may take)? I've had to do a lot of compartmentalizing, separating the black-and-white acceptance of having a job and doing it from the messy anxiety of all in-school learning entails right now.

Thank you for your beautiful words.

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